THE REMAINDER WALK

I just read the novel Remainder by Tom McCarthy.  It’s a good book, I think.  I wished it had been a bit shorter but then I wish that about most books.

If it’s about what it appears to be about, it concerns a man who’s been hit by ‘something falling from the sky,’ and is severely injured, so badly in fact that he has to learn to walk again

The narrator says, ‘And if you thinkThat’s not so bad: we all have to learn to walk once; you just had to learn it twice, you’re wrong.  Completely wrong.  That’s just it see: in the normal run of things you never learn to walk like you learn swimming, French or tennis.  You just do it without thinking how you do it: you just stumble into it, literally. I had to take walking lessons. For three whole weeks my physio wouldn’t let me walk without his supervision, in case I picked up bad habits.’

This is good stuff.  It sounds absolutely authentic and believable.

         Then the guy’s compensation comes through – eight and a half million quid  - and I honestly couldn’t decide whether or not that was really enough money to carry out what he has in mind, even given that he invested it wisely. Essentially he decides to reshape the world, or at least some very specific parts of it, and make it exactly the way he wants it.

In the first instance, this involves searching for a building that he once lived in.  The search is long and arduous and he decides to employ some oblique strategies to help him.

‘I cooked myself some breakfast and pondered how best to make my search irrational.  The first idea that came to me was to I-Ching the map; to close my eyes, turn round a few times, stick a pin in blindly and then go and look in whatever area it happened to have landed on… Colours was the next idea I had: following … I also considered following a numerical system .. Or I could devise a corresponding process using the alphabet… I could …’

The guy has turned into a psychogeographer!!!

I went onlike to look for an author photograph of Tom Mccarthy to illustrate this post.  There’s no shortage, and he evidently meets quite a decent class of photography.  But in the end what struck me is that he resembles (in some pictures anyway) a rather more stylish Dwight Shrute of the American Office fame.  Unforntunately we cannot choose who we resemble.

WALKING VOICES

I remember once reading or hearing an interview with somebody, an actor or actress or model or maybe fashion designer, somebody like that, and he or she said that when they were growing up they liked to imagine that as they walked in the world they were constantly filmed by hidden cameras: yeah, yeah, these days we all are, I know, but these were imaginary and benevolent. 

The result was that when they walked down the street they straightened up, put a spring in their step, tried to move elegantly, to look attractive and vivacious.  Alas there’s no way in the world I’ll ever remember this interviewee’s name, but he or she obviously thought this was very quirky and unusual, whereas I’m not so sure.

There’s an article in the most recent London Review of Books by Tom McCarthy (that's him above), titled “Writing Machines” about notions of “the real” in fiction.  He quotes a (to me anyway) very familiar passage from William Burroughs: “Take a walk down a city street … You have seen a person cut in two by a car, bits and pieces of street signs and advertisements, reflections from shop windows – a montage of fragments … Consciousness is a cut-up; life is a cut-up.”

        

“He’s right as well,” says McCarthy, and I also concur.  It’s a terrific piece and I agree with 90 per cent of it (so it must be good) but I did carp at something McCarthy then says: “We don’t walk down the street saying to ourselves: ‘As I walk down the street, comma, I contemplate the question of faith, or adultery, or x or y or z.’”

But I’m here to tell him that for for a longish period of my early life, say from the ages of 8 to 13, as I walked in the world I often “heard” a third person narrative voice in my head: though it wasn’t an hallucination, I knew I was constructing it, knew that the voice was my own.   It would be “saying” thing such as “The boy walked down the grey, wet northern street.  Nobody knew him, nobody understood him, he felt he didn’t belong here and he had to get out ...”  I fictionalize of course, which is largely McCarthy’s point about realism, and I exaggerate a little, but only a little.

I suspect my “narrator’s” prose style wasn’t the very best, probably Enid Blyton bleeding into Ian Fleming, since they were the two authors I’d read most of at that time.  I can’t swear that Fleming was much of a walker but Blyton certainly was, favoring the “nature walk.”

When I walk these days I don’t hear the third person narrative voice in my head, but I do sometimes rehearse what I’m going to write when I get home, the voice that I eventually use in this blog.

Above, incidentally, is the cover of Five on a Hike Together (which I don’t remember at all, though I thought I’d read all the Famous Five books).  It looks like something went seriously wrong on this particular nature walk.